I've never had any formal training in the culinary arts, or photography; there was a time when I considered an invitation to the Le Cordon Bleu program at the Art Institutes, but we hardly know what we want to do with our lives at 16, do we? My entire life, much to the dismay of teachers and professors, I have, however, been enamored with the ability to create. My mind, which has been defined 'mathematical' by countless battalions of tests through my scholastic years, operates in a very linear manner of problem solving. However, my heart, it draws me to that which is unconventional. Whether it is a collection of words, a palette of flavors, or a moving photograph; that which I create needs not touch a single soul to speak to my own, and I am happy.
Yes, what I love about creating is that there can truly be no judgement on success or failure. Never have I posted a photo or written a post and stepped back to read a comment that made me feel any less. Opinions are like, well, you know what they say, everyone has one. We, as individuals wouldn't be very astounding, or functional, without them, now would we? I create in many mediums, but I always create for one person and one person only, myself. The fact I choose to share some of my creations with friends, family, or readers, is not a need for validation. It is the execution of my own vulnerability. The display of something I have made that before, did not exist. And the triumph is not in approval of others, but my confidence in knowing that I had an idea and I made it be.
It's funny, really, some of the accomplishments in my life I'm most proud of have never been recognized by anyone but me. Does it make me wish I'd never invested myself in them? Does it make me spiteful? Absolutely freaking not! I feel in life the only true measurement of success of failure is whether one tried. So, the next time you feel like you are not as good as, not good enough, or or just plain not good at anything; remember that you had the courage to try, and that, in itself, makes you a success!
What Daughter Says: Your biggest critic is you. Isn't it time to change the way you judge yourself?